A Song for my Ex

I was daydreaming when I thought of you
Fell into my mind from the ocean blue
Fell into my mind just like you owned the place
Locked all the doors and now I can’t escape


For forty days and forty nights at sea
Trapped by the tides this swelling apathy
I wish that I could just get over you
I wish you hadn’t found somebody new


I always heard now baby what’s the rush
I always hurried through the gentle hush
I always heard that sometimes love is tough
I always worried I’m not good enough


And now you’re here and now I’m fading back
Invisibilia we’re all shades of black
Invisibilia now I hold it true
Invisibilia was I seen by you


Is this the way that it has got to end
An exposition of my deeper sin
A declaration for the barren men
A gust of wind around the river bend


Fuck you for saying that I must let go
That I am hanging on a fraying rope
That I am less and without empathy
That I am love without security


So at the end is this now where we start
Drenched in the sorrow of my bleeding heart
Drenched in the envy of my loneliness
A search for truth and not for happiness


I am ashamed that I still dream of you
Rising up from my subconscious blue
Rising up just like you own the place
Locked all the doors and now I contemplate


That maybe I was never held by you
That maybe I was never told the truth
Maybe I’m all I need to set me free
Could love be more than what you gave to me

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